Good Morning Everyone!
I'm sorry this is long, but I think it is worth the read.
Yesterday afternoon was so very trying for me. I was attempting to sell some wheels I had; agreed to meet the potential buyer between their location and mine at an agreed time and place. I was getting off earlier than expected, so I texted the buyer to confirm we were still on. We were. I informed them that I will be getting to the public place earlier than expected and they were going to do their best too meet me there at the new time I was arriving. Hour earlier, but I informed them that the original time of 5:30 was fine. I drive to Ocala. No word from them at 5:30. I patiently waited and quarter till 6:00 they inform me they are on the way. Okay, fine. Time passes I reach out to them, they claim they are in very heavy rain and had to pull off the interstate. This throws me for a loop, because the meeting point would not require travel on I-75. Safety first, so I informed them I would be waiting. It is almost 7:00 and I've been there close to two and a half hours. Very frustrated because multiple text were ignored from 6:30 until 7:00. I was late Monday night due to having an MRI at 6:30 and now this. I call just after 7:00 and the spouse answers the phone. I asked how things were going. They respond they would not be coming to Ocala.
I kept my cool...
I took a deep breath and said okay and they hung up.
I was beyond infuriated. It wasn't a big deal to them the time I wasted and the money I spent driving to Ocala to have to drive home to Newberry. I was exhausted and I did all I could not to explode. Get home and every little thing seemed to trigger me. Simple things like grabbing a paper towel from the rack in the garage. Now I cannot sleep, because I scroll through social media and continue too see the garbage posted on there.
I return to the verses below.
26 “In your anger do not sin” : Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, 27 and do not give the devil a foothold. 28 Anyone who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with their own hands, that they may have something to share with those in need. 29 Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. 30 And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. 31 Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice.
I remind myself that my problem is nothing compared to many others. People are losing family members, their lives, and so much more than I could fathom and I'm worried about a deal that fell through. It is sometimes hard for us (me for sure) to see pass the transgression that occurred and just move on regardless of what it may have been. We must lean on God and allow him to handle it. I wasn't loud or mean to the potential buyer when I learned they weren't coming. I was angry though. It is very hard to do this. Remain composed in this situation. Proudly I did. However...when I was hung up on. I broke. We can't do this. We must forgive.
Let's continue pray for Bruce's wife. Pray for Shane and his family as they prepare to lay his dad to rest. Pray for those servicemembers that died in the C-130 crash on Monday and their families that are grieving from their loss. Pray for those of us dealing with their demons. Continue to pray for our Church Leaders. Let's work hard to be the Christian the Lord wants us to be!
Have a Blessed Day!